i realise i've been missing out alot in life.
many things i've been wanting to do so much.
getting a life of my own.
doing something i really enjoy doing.
i'm too laid back, too lazy, too relaxed.
its so unlike the me i used to be.
so competitive, so full of energy.
now, i rather stand back and let others do it.
i dont like to compete, unless there's a need to.
alright, i do compete with myself.
i saw the importance of journey, the team bonding along the way to our destination.
and many a time now, i find small lil things irritable.
im no longer as forgiving, okay maybe i am, i might just be not bothered at all.
i dont really care abt things so much now, i let my hands off.
im so much weaker now.
all those positive talks, yes i do them.
but i feel weaker, my strength no longer last as long as they did in the past.
yes i know, i will and i can do it eventually.
but. something's just missing. :/
i hope this is part of growing up and.
i hope i get stronger.